It seems like I was always quiet or shy as a kid, except maybe at home or with family. I'd hide behind my Mom's leg when faced with unknown adults. I loved to play outside; to climb trees, pick berries, play sports. But I was someone who most people didn't know very well. I was quiet, kept to myself, focused on my studies or whatever novel I was reading, Interview with the Vampire was my favorite (obsession) for several years in high school. I did well in school, I could easily retain information and enjoyed learning for the most part. Staying awake in 10th grade history class was something I tried really hard to do. I had friends but floated around between social groups. I was an exchange student my senior year and a few things come to mind in relation to my being quiet, shy and/or introverted. On my application to the Rotary, my principle wrote that I was a "quiet leader". I still think about that. I was quiet but I also had a strong personality and strong point of view and saw through a lot of the bs of high school and didn't want to have any part in it. That comment helped me realize that I wasn't invisible or alone, that maybe other kids found strength to be themselves from my example. Maybe that's true, maybe not. But I'd like to think it is. Anyway, back to being an exchange student. I remember being in France, walking from one building to the next with a classmate of mine, she was showing me to one of my classes I think. And I started to ask a question or say something but stopped myself. She looked at me and said "Try, you've got to try to speak". That was 17 years ago, and it was a pivotal moment in my exchange year and my life. At the end of the year, one of the gentleman from the Rotary said he thought at the start of the year that I wouldn't make it through because I was so quiet. That's not how I roll. I worked at it and pushed myself and I made a few close friends who helped me grow even more. This where my strength and quiet leadership come in because I am someone who sticks with something and doesn't always realize or think about how difficult things are until I've gotten to the other side. And I was determined to learn to speak French fluently. And I still do to this day, 17 years later. So even though I was/am quiet and I've got to speak up to be heard sometimes, there is a determination and knowing within me that is so strong and so trustworthy. I know I'm not the only one, and I'm happy to show the way.
This is my lane, it's about my human experience and the journey of spiritual and personal growth that I'm on. Writing is often what I use to process what I'm going through and what I've learned. My goal is for the experiences and lessons I've learned to resonate and help other people in their own journey.
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